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| My heart almost stop beating when the server down...!! Aarghh...server
down server down..!! Panic like what lar me. But lucky can restore as
per normal. I skipped dinner and even miss my favorite show last nite,
just to monitor and ensure that everything is working perfectly fine.
Went to bed around 1.30 am wif empty stomach, and this morning i felt
dizzy... Take out my thermometre, slight fever. Later need to send my
car for washing, then pack my stuff then will drive to Singapore in the
evening. Very tiring. My head aching again..i wonder what's in my head.
Mom called, very happy coz i'll be meeting them in KL mid February.
Seems like bie have to celebrate Valentine's by himself this year  . Nvm lar, i shall see what i can do about it. No specific plan yet. Life is like a box of chocolate...how true..
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| I was terribly affected by the news that mum is suffering from severe
emphysema. She said she went for x-ray and the condition of her lungs
are not good at all. I can know from the tone of her voice that she is
worried. She said she was hospitalized coz of emphysema when i was so
young, and she almost couldnt make it to live, and this time she got it
again. I was so scared, i never feel so afraid like this before. I
cried the whole night until there are no more tears left. How i wish i
could be there to be by her side right now. I am so afraid, so very
afraid. I will not hesitate to tell her how much i love her, i
just want her to know that i really love her. Norman has just
lost her mom who was suffering from cancer, Shalyn's mom is suffering
from cancer too. Now i'm worried about my mom. I just cant stop
thinking about how i have ill treated her sometimes, i wish i could
have turn back time. She will always remind me to eat, always be by my
side, always be there when i need her. I dont know what can i do
to ease her pain. Sometimes i do think of going back to sarawak to see
her, but i gotta work. But if her condition is really bad, i wouldnt
mind losing my job just to be with her. I can only pray for her,
nothing much i can do but to call her and ask how's her condition and
to remind her to take good care of herself and to take her medicine. I
just cannot stop crying everytime i think of her. Why must be her? God
why must be my mom?
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| I dreamt my mom told me i've grown fatter...whoaaa...i hope it will
come true...muaahhahaha. I'm learning to take things easy, but not for
granted. I Take things easy, and things will come to you when you are
least expecting it. I'm striving to build a relationship with Christ. I
put my hope in trust in Him, but what worries me is Hubby. He gives up
so easily. When God doesnt seem to help him, then he will say that God
will never listen to his prayer, and he will start to get angry and say
wanna scold Him. Nevertheless, i still pray for him, God will never
abandon us no matter what will happen. Pray and believe, i put my whole
trust and hope in Him. Life is not easy, but it is not meant to be so
tough either. There will be bumpy roads sometimes, but bear with it a
while and surely there will be smooth road ahead.
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| I've discovered something so unbelievable about myself today...I can
eat whole loaf of bread for lunch...!!! I didnt realise it coz i was
reading Doraemon, and when i was about to choke myself with another
slice of bread, then i found out i've finished them all !! Hmm seems
like i still have hope to gain weight....heheheheh 
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| My mom hates me, my sister hates me, my dad hates me, my bf hates me, my friends despise me, everybody hates me...!!!!
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